fooood!

Well, guess what we had for dinner yesterday? Can’t guess? Lemme help you: I had curry goat and honey-sunshine had curry chicken.

Nope – we are still in Kentuky …

We’ve been watching this Jamaican restaurant for a while. It was opening up when I was here in August/September but we never quite found out when their hours were or whether they were officially open or no. Well, this time, it seems, they are open for business – regularly. They are authentic. Even though the accents were definitely from here, the Jamaican accent crept in here and there and I realized they definitely are Jamaicans themselves. Tasted the food and it was confirmed. Tonite, we get escoveitch fish and oxtail via delivery. Ha!

wash_dayjpeg.jpgIn other news, the rest of the furniture arrived yesterday and I got straight to housewifing with a vengeance – washed clothes, sorted socks …. ya. Can you believe it? The Fyr … housewife! Feel like I’ve stepped into the Twilight Zone.  Seriously though, I am really enjoying this interlude. I suspect I will have to re-adjust once things are more settled because I don’t believe I could do this indefinitely – be a housewife alone. The question is, though, what will I do? Not thinking about that much – when the time comes, the answer will come with it. I am confident.

For the right here and now, I am taking it day by day. This feels right and I am going to ensure I keep doing it just like this until the time comes for another change.

Ah my dear bloggers and readers … the fyr is in contentment land. And what a wonderful place this is!

::sigh::

adjustments

wrench.jpgSo, this whole experience has been one big adjustment for me. There have been moments when I am having loads of fun, and others when I feel so completely out of my depth and out of place that I almost want to cry. Today, it occurred to me that things are going as well as can be expected … but one of the things that I have NOT spent any real time appreciating is the quiet. Nevermind that the furnace and humidifiers hum all the time, there is no traffic noises, no loud boom-boom music, no gunshots (oh wait – does mortar shells being exploded count?) …. it IS indeed very quiet and for that I am extremely grateful. I think my mind is finally beginning to calm down and take stock of where I am at.

Of course, the result of THAT process is a realization of where I am at …. REALLY and TRULY. And for the Fyr of old, it is a most decidedly uncomfortable position to be in. Aside from being completely dependent, I seem to be getting ill. My stomach has been acting all weird for a couple of days now and at first I thought it might be the Soy milk – however, considering I had Soy milk almost 24 hours ago, there is no real reason why it should still be upsetting me now. I am beginning to think I have some kind of stomach flu … or something. I am watching it and hoping that it doesn’t get serious and that it clears up on it’s own …. another visit to the emergency room is not something I am really looking forward to at all.

Anyway, the good news is that the humidifiers are working wonders for me. I have less issues with the nose on awakening and throughout the day now. Also, with the help of my good friends Mz.Understood and Mistikhal, I am more prepared for the temps -attire especially – than I was when I got here. Isn’t it amazing what misconceptions one develops on topics that one knows nothing about? I had thought that in the house I would need only to wear such things as my long jammies and slippers … that isn’t enough. Even though the house is heated, I needed bulkier and more insulated clothes and shoes. A visit to Walmart fixed me right up.

It should be snowing out now. They forecast some snow in the wee hours of the morning and I haven’t checked, but I do believe the temp rose a bit. I just took a peek – it’s dark out still but my little flashlight afforded me the view of snowflakes on the ground and falling. Maybe it’ll be a pretty morning later on – we’ll see. Expect more pictures as I am STILL within my right to be a complete gladdice about snow – thanksomuchgood.

Anyhow, it’s late, the hubby should be home soon … I think I am going to try and get a headstart on sleep before he gets in. Yes, I know it’s like 5am …. he’s running the graveyard this week… poor sunshine. Anyway – it’ll be nice to cuddle in bed here now.

Look out for picts tomorrow, eh?

Toodles.

it’s hot? wth?

I woke up sweating this morning. The hubby had already left for work and I was literally melting under the covers. So I got up, took a nice shower, lathered body oil over the bod (since the cold HATES my skin) and strut downstairs – brave in my t-shirt and sweatpants only. I am making tea because I need something hot in my tummy and I am STILL warm. What the hell? Did hubby turn the heat up? I go check the thermostat, and it’s still at 75, so WHY am I so hot?

O wait .. they said it was going to snow last night… did it?

I peep through the front door and lo and behold! snow and ice cover the ground. Doh! That’s why it’s so warm – I edge the thermostat down about 3 degrees and grab my camera.

Oh STOP making fun of me, will ya?! This is my second winter where there is snow and ice … just allow me to enjoy it, m’k? If you all are right, it’ll be old for me in a year or 2. Let me at least have some memories to laugh at, eh?

So, pictures ensued – nevermind that it’s still dark out and that the snow is already melting into ice … I took 2 pictures anyway. What’s that? Where are they? Oh wait – I thought you weren’t interested? :P

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I’ve been here less than a week, and I am already thinking it was worth the stress to come. I am SO having the best vacation ever. ::dreamy sigh::

For you

I woke up this morning and was greeted with one of the scariest, saddest, most troubling message on my IM. In many ways, it is a message that carries meanings that I don’t think that I can either articulate clearly nor do I believe that this is even the right time to go into some of those meanings.

So, instead, I post an image, send a thought and a prayer, and close my eyes and send warm hugs, comfort and commiseration to my good friend who is dealing with a particularly painful loss today.

To her: You know I feel your pain with you. Know too, then, that you are in my thoughts.

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it’s snowing!!!


it’s snowing!!!

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Well, I am certainly being your typical tourist today!!! I keep running to the doors (front AND back) to snap photos of the snow!!! I am being a REAL Gladdice – yes, I know!!! :D

It hasn’t been all that cold today, although that might be because my jaunts outside are a few minutes at a time at best. But I am all wrapped up in my Jamaica pullover and Hanes jammies and socks … so I am cozy-ified.

It’s dreary and overcast out, has been since I got here, but it hasn’t started affecting me … and I am wondering if it will. I have become less and less of an outside person – would that make much of a difference? I dunno. Time will tell.

One thing is for CERTAIN – I am here, I am happy, I am content. I don’t want to leave …. EVER.

amazingly calm

argh!!!!After 3 weeks of pure stress, tension, anxiety attacks, mad MAD rushes of thought and a stomach that rivalled the worst tornados in history, I am sitting here at my newly constructed desk here in KY and I am calm, content, a little stuffy in the head (change of temps, of course) and extremely happy. I have to say that it’s Amazing, with the capital “A”. I am stunned, how could just 2000+ miles and a 50 degree drop in temperature make SUCH a large difference in my temperament and headspace? But my good friend DJ would call me a Big Head and tell me that it’s obvious and that I should just sit back and enjoy it.

So, all that to say that after 3 weeks of madness, I am finally in Kentucky with my honey-sunshine and living large.

It’s been a Terrible 3 weeks. Anxiety was my companion through all those weeks, hence my long silence. I just couldn’t sit still long enough to compose a blog post. WoW helped a LOT, except for when the brain finally quieted enough to realize that I was goofing off instead of DOING something, then the cycle started again. Breath would shorten, bowels would tighten, head would start to throb and the screams would start in my head. It was very unpleasant. This is the best way I can describe what my head was like to you, but somehow I don’t believe I have done it true justice.

I had so much to accomplish in such a short space of time and none of it was getting done because I was just too much of a mess to get anything done. I mean simple things like eating and sleeping were a challenge. Well, not so much the eating – that part I had down. It was the sleeping part that was ridiculous. I don’t think I have slept well in about a month.

Anyway – enough of that crap. Moving on … Continue reading